It’s been a few weeks and quite frankly I’m still feeling a bit lost…

New town, new house, both kids at school, hubby is at work, off work due to overusing (and re-injuring) my back during the move…

What do these things add up to for me? Well, I’ve been struggling and have been self soothing/comforting with food and wine (my usual go-to’s when the going gets tough).

I don’t mean to sound like a whiny baby because I know there are many things to be thankful for. Please believe me when I say that I’ve been grasping at them, trying really hard to focus on the good and for the most part I think I’ve been doing alright.

Sometimes though, it’s hard to stay afloat and the good things are hard to see. I suppose it may be a bit like being in the water during a storm. You know that land is out there somewhere and you are trying to see it and focus but with the storm going on around you, it’s easy to get turned around and further from the shore. It’s sort of like how I’m feeling, I look around and feel joy – I can see all the good but with all the other stuff, changes happening – I’m having trouble hanging onto it all.

That likely didn’t come out as I intended but it’s been too long again since I last wrote and I’m more than a bit rusty.

I should say that the move went very well aside from my back flare. We now live in this amazing and beautiful home (not trying to brag – simply trying to illustrate that I do, in fact, know how blessed we truly are). Our kids are adjusting (fairly) well to their new school, friends and teachers. We are all healthy and have one another. I know I have MUCH to be thankful & grateful for.

So why am I so lost? Why can’t I seem to get my sh*t together? I think part of it may be because my youngest is now off at school full time and my (current, though temporary) inability to work has left me feeling without a ‘greater’ purpose. Sure I do all the ‘wifely’ & ‘homemaking’ duties but I’ve always done more…

My husband, along with friends and family all assure me this isn’t the case – that I absolutely do have great purpose and this is simply a ‘break’ but I’m certainly struggling…

Stay at home mamas/parents – where does your purpose come from? Have you ever struggled with a sense of purpose once both children were in school?

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