I shared this on one of my social media platforms a few days ago and have been wracking my brain trying to figure out what my next blog post should/could be about.
A really good friend of mine suggested sharing that post here…
It’s not written in my typical blog post form but rather directly copy & pasted below.
Afternoon coffee & cartoon watching with my two fave girls 💖
🚨🚨Long Post Alert 🚨🚨
Been kinda MIA lately. 😶😶
This move has been really tough, my social anxiety reared its ugly head with a vengeance (the last time it did I didn’t leave my house for 6 plus months 👉🏻basically not unless I absolutely HAD to). 😳😳
I don’t do well with meeting new people, doesn’t mean I don’t like meeting & making new friends. What it does mean is that I’m not the greatest when it comes to small talk and I sometimes have trouble ‘letting people in’.
This time I was using wine 🍷 as a coping mechanism and due to health concerns and feeling like it was becoming a terrible ‘bad habit’ I felt led to give it up (at least for a time).
I’m 5 days in and although I haven’t noticed any huge changes – I can say I’m happy – not only have I given it up for now, I’ve steered clear of binging (another thing I was doing to cope).
The truth is, just because I know what’s good for me doesn’t mean I always do it. 😮😮
I’ve been trying for weeks to get back into the recovery phase of compulsive overeating.
I remember when I was younger and didn’t struggle (as much) with my food and by that I mean I could ‘regiment’ myself better (which I’m not sure was the right way to go about things either)…
I could abstain from many things with an almost ease (my friends used to call me crazy and other names – like weight watcher ‘something’ the term they used isn’t politically correct 😮😮) but it’s because even back then I would OBSESS about what I was or wasn’t eating – I needed to be sure not to overindulge unless I was willing to punish myself with excess exercise or eat less calories the next day… 😰😰
Honestly, I’m not perfect – I’m SO far from it. But you know what changed this year? Aside from my coaching commitment (which has also been FAR from perfect). What changed for me is the realization that I’m NOT alone – that other people who are wonderful have similar struggles, and more importantly that just because they struggle doesn’t change WHO they are… 🙌🏻🙌🏻🙌🏻
I’ve learned that even when I fall down (and don’t get back up straight away) that there is this little flame inside me still burning, pushing me to keep going. No matter WHAT that looks like at that present moment! 😁
Sometimes it means full boar back on track, other times it means being kind to my mind all the while not completely losing track of my long term goals. 👍🏻👍🏻
Today is a reminder that these past couple months have been but a hiccup, a blip on the radar in my journey and I will NOT let them define me OR my abilities as a person or a coach.
The thing I’m most grateful in all of this is the constant support, love, friendships & encouragement I have gotten from this incredible network of people in which I feel incredibly grateful and blessed to be a part of! 😍😍😍
Cheers to pushing through previously set limits & boundaries and realizing what YOU are truly capable of! 🙌🏻👍🏻💪🏻👏🏻