I have been wracking my brain since yesterday trying to decide what I would write about today – my thoughts still seem to be such a jumbled mess…

Then I came upon this quote “I’m not saying it’s going to be easy. Nothing in life is easy. But that’s no reason to give up. You’ll be surprised what you can accomplish if you set your mind to it. After all, you only have one life, so you should try to make the most of it.”
― Louis Sachar

I am more determined than ever to stand strong.  I know it has been less than 48 hours but I already feel more at peace, I know that I have accomplished more today than I would have had I been “sucked in”  The very fact that I am sitting down, blogging for the second day in a row is proof of it.

For me it is more than just about giving something up for lent – of course I am happy to be “participating” in the Lenten season this year, just another thing you do as you grow in your faith as far as I am concerned.  But, I want to delve deeper, I am using this time to hopefully become more aware altogether.  I want to do more, be more, give more.

I have begun with the blog as you well know but I am hoping to make many other changes also!  I want to focus more time lavishing love on my husband and children, preparing and cooking more nutritious meals for us.  I also want to continue writing – I know I am a little rusty, but there was a time when I was not too shabby.  It was something that I was very passionate about and really enjoyed!

I also, more than ever; want to grow in my faith!  Lent is all about fasting and it doesn’t have to be only from food.  For instance I am “fasting” from Facebook because I felt it was something in which I spend too much of my time on.  It had become a nasty habit and often times I would open the app on my phone without really thinking or realizing what I was doing.  Now I am not saying that Facebook is bad – I think it great for staying in touch with family and friends who live far away and for networking.  I guess what bothers me is that it gives a false sense of “connection.”  Just because you like a status or a picture, doesn’t mean you are really connecting with that person.  I would have to say that taking this time away has made me recognize I would personally prefer to reach out via other means.  I am veering off topic her… What I am trying to get convey is this – I know, for myself; that this break is going to force me to look inward, to reach out more to The Lord in prayer.  I suspect this will happen more so in these early days when the habit of Facebook is still there.   You know what, though – that makes me really happy!  To know that I was praying for guidance in my walk with Him, not realizing that He was there waiting.  Now, I just need to do it!

Blessings xo

It has been ages since I have put “pen to paper” and therefore, long overdue.  Where do I begin?  So much has happened since my living in the moment post.

I suppose because it has been so long since I last wrote anything that this may end up being a jumbled mess with thoughts all over the place but here it goes…

This time last year, poop hit the proverbial fan in this house and although I won’t go into exact detail – I will say that my life really felt as though it was falling apart at the seams.   It was all I could do to keep it together.  This time it was different though, in the past I would have turned to my vice’s and “checked out” because it was too heavy to deal with but being a mom of two and having given up said vices, I was forced to face it head on.  I wasn’t sure what to do, who to turn to, how to handle it.  So, I reached out to many – some told me that I should run, leave and “take a break” that it would do the problem some good.  That might have been how I dealt in the past but I knew it wasn’t the answer this time.  I, of course; had some guidance from close family and a couple really good friends and I suppose that is where I began this journey.   My Nana told me I needed to stay put and my friends (who were already Christians), told me I needed God.  So, I thought “what have I got to lose.”  I reached out to Him.  Truth is, I wasn’t sure because I have never been a religious person.  I grew up in pretty well an atheist household hearing things like “it’s just a story” (referring to The Bible), if He was real, why would he allow the good to suffer and so forth.  So up until a year ago, I had never given much thought about the Big Man upstairs.

Now, I am most certainly not claiming that since I began actively seeking Him, praying and trying to understand what it meant to be a child of God, a Christian; that I am holier than thou, any better, that life is miraculously easier for me or my family.  Quite the opposite – far as I am concerned, it is a daily choice – to be the best version of myself possible.  Please trust me when I tell you there are many days where I am tested, tried and most definitely out of my ‘comfort zone.’   What I will tell you, however is that I would have walked away from my husband, my marriage had it not been for God.  It was because of His strength, His Love, Mercy, Forgiveness that I was able to stay put.  There are so many other wonderful things that He gives us without question which is why I was able to not only just ‘stay put’ but also get through everything this last year has thrown at me and fight for my husband, my marriage and my family.

Since I was saved last year, I have been wondering and praying about what I might give up for lent this year.  I realize I am almost a week late but I have chosen something which I know will cause much thought for me.  I am definitely embarrassed to say I have spent FAR too much time “sucked in” over the last while, missing precious time and even more precious moments on Facebook.  While I certainly don’t expect the next few plus weeks to be easy , I absolutely expect them to cause time for reflection, prayer and further growth in my own personal walk with The Lord and really, is that not the whole point?

I am going to try to write a bit each day.  Blessings xo